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Live and let live Jean 19 Sep to me My name is Jean Wade.  Presently I am at a good place in my life, not that it was like this the past few months. Let me recap on my journey the past months. January 2013 I came back to Cape Town after spending 7. Months in Randburg, a northern suburb in Johannesburg, also spent a few weeks in the Northern Cape. It was with great excitement that I returned to Cape Town to be back with all my family and friends, forgetting that I did not really made arrangements where and with whom I going to stay. Previously for quite a few years I rented a very nice 2 bedroom flat in Bellville. Not doing my home work probably I truly bumbled my head against a wall, thinking I got two married children with whom I can stay. In my mind I said to myself with my daughter 'cause I can help the children with their school work. Weekends with my son because we are part of same House of Faith. Lesson no 1 never take things for granted. Talk things through, but I taught my children the right way, so there would not be a problem. They were not really ready to take me on even though their marriages had a strong foundation. Knowing they were believers, there would be no problem, but what a shocker it was for me, rather not going into other things.  The reason also I could not rent a flat, was because I was not financial stable as flats are going up to R4000.00 p.m.   There were really times when I did not know where I must put my head down, late at night I had to knock and see if they will open the door for me, if not I must go to my sister-in-law where I had to sleep on a chair.  It had been a very sad time in my life.  I don't think I cried in my life so much as I did in the past months since January 2013.  I just ask them to put me up till I am able to sort myself till next year 2014. I always thought that my son would see to me as we were always on the same page and can share so much with each other, but I had to come to terms with it that He got his own family a wife and a daughter.  That is and are still hard, but I made peace with it and accept it now, and I thank my Heavenly Father who strengthened me every day. In April I went again to Johannesburg booked myself into a hotel, wherewith I had a change to think about my future and whereto from there. It did me a lot of good as I could come to terms with my circumstances. You would think I am crazy, but If you know me and my son and just know the close relationship we had...............then you we would other assumptions. My sister in Kraaifontein came to my rescue and I moved in by her in  end of April.  We got a good relationship, I am doing my own thing and she likes that. In May we once again we had to go back to Johannesburg for my son's father's funeral for a week. At that stage I still struggle within myself, because I gave my whole life for my children....there I go again!  There were times that I thought what is there to live for, but what really kept me sane was the Hope in Christ that was built in me by my spiritual father at our Household  of Faith. He came that we might have life and have life in abundance. I chose life because He chose me. I don't need to go sit in a corner and cry, because my problem is just a drop in the ocean as there are others with much bigger problems, and those who are sick. My Heavenly Father is so faithful, it was in August, just before I went on holiday again, that my son- in-law phoned me. My daughter spoked to him and wants me to stay with them in a separate entrance. We met and talked things through, they are now seriously looking for a place with a granny flat. I could go to Durban with so much and had a great time with a friend of mine. I thank Him most of all for my Health, that I'm able to walk, talk and work. And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28 NKJV) .  Therefore whatever your situation is how miserable it may look, know there is hope. I still got a strong relationship with my son, daughter and there respective spouses. Sent from my iPad Jean